Day 21 Check In

I probably should have started checking in here when I started my Atkins journey, but I wasn't the most confident and I was ready to quit by day seven. 

But here we are at day 21 and I've lost a total of 7.6 pounds lost. I haven't done my measurements lately since I am only doing them once a month, but in the first two weeks I did lose two inches off of my waist. 

I'm sure I could have lost more if I'd stayed on phase one longer than I did, but my body just couldn't handle it. The lack of carbs was flat making me ill. I will be staying on phase two with 25 carb limit for now to see if I can keep losing that way before I up the limit up five more carbs per week until I start to maintain. 

So far my favorite thing has been that I can still eat my eggs and spinach in the morning since that's totally Atkins approved. I do miss sweets sometimes, but not often. I made my son a bowl of cranberry and flax oatmeal this morning and tasted it and it was disgustingly sweet. I'm sure it won't take long for me to not really like sugar at all. I still crave salty snacks like you wouldn't believe but that can be curbed with a handful of almonds or dry roast peanuts with sea salt. Doesn't taste near as good as a Goldfish cracker or a Cheez-It.

I have been slacking on water recently so I need to step my game back up on that. I always aim for nearly a gallon a day. For reference that's three of the big Fiji waters, the liters, plus a little more. It sounds like a lot of water until you break it down into smaller terms. 

I'm doing a lot of exercising when I can. The past few days Ive slacked because my knees sound like Rice Crispies cereal when I stand up. I twisted one of them on Friday and it's been a little sketchy since. Getting old sucks!

Now that the sugar angries have settled down I'm really enjoying eating the way I have. I'm rarely hungry, and if I am I can solve it with a quick protein shake or bar. I don't have crazy cravings for everything junk that exists in this world. My self control has gotten loads better. On Father's Day there was cheesecake and ice cream cake at the gathering I attended and I didn't eat it. I didn't eat anything but a little bit of shredded chicken with some crema on it to get in my proteins and fats. It was also spicy af and I nearly didn't make it through the whole bowl. 

I'm really tempted to start making youtube videos about  my journey, I'm just not that comfortable exposing myself that much on camera. I still hate my body. Yes, I'm down to 162lbs but I am still flabby and hate it. I don't have the courage to show that to the world. 

Atkins Attempt #4

As the title suggests, this is the fourth time I've attempted the Atkins Diet. For once I am seeing progress! 

I've struggled with my weight for years. For the better part of my twenties I dealt with an eating disorder. I was down to 112lbs (50kg) and a US size 2 pants. And I loved it. I could wear all of the cute clothes that I was too big for in high school, and I felt really good about myself. 

Then I broke my ankle. Sometimes I think that is directly due to the fact that I was extremely malnourished. My bone shattered like a lightbulb and had to be surgically reconstructed. It was baaaaaad. My boyfriend swears it's because I stepped into an 18 inch (45cm) deep hole while walking full speed ahead. It was definitely a combo of both. 

Checking In

2020 has been a crazy year so far, hasn't it! 

With everything that's going on I wanted to take time to check in with whoever still actually reads this. 

Are you ok mentally?

Did you remember to take your meds today? Brush your teeth or shower? 

It's ok to not be ok. 

I suffer from depression and hardcore anxiety and I'm a recovering agoraphobic. It is totally ok to not be ok. Just remember to take care of yourself, even if it's the smallest acts of self care. 

If you need a friendly ear you can always leave a comment here or find me through one of my other social media platforms. We are all in this together!

Don't Mind the Dust!

Please don't mind the dust going on around here, I'm trying to do a bit of a new theme to go with the new name change!

After years of being petitefeet pretty much everywhere it just felt like it was time for a change. I didn't feel like it was fitting anymore, thus Vonnie with a V. Not Bonnie with a B!

I've been in the process of working on it through this quarantine period thanks to my bff. She's going through nursing school and did a leadership program and I was a part of it. The main objective was to make a goal and stick to it, complete with timeline.

Mine was to brush this place off and hopefully get back into blogging more now that I have my depression and anxiety under control - and have a new computer!

It's going to take some time. If you're still here, thanks for your support. If you're new, hi!



All of my social media has been changed as well, and you can find me on both Twitter and Instagram under the handle itsvonniewithav.

Stay safe, everyone!