Cleaning Fuel!

Yes, I rolled those myself <3

I will have a fresh start for fall!

Shedding Some Weight

I am shedding some weight tonight. Not literally, but figuratively. I am getting rid of a lot of belongings that I simply do not need anymore. I was digging through my storage trunk and found some old toys. One of the guys I dated back in high school gave me a Cabbage Patch doll, something I never had when I was a little girl. I have been carrying that thing in my trunk for seven years. (He gave it to me in 2004 when we tried the dating thing again - it didn't work once again. I thought it was because I wanted more than he was ready to give - turns out he has a thing for fat girls and I am very thin. For such a handsome man that can get any woman he wants, I would have never thought of him as a chubby chaser!) Then there is the hand puppet given to me by another boyfriend from high school. What on earth do I need a hand puppet for now? Looks like my goddaughter is going to get a few new toys. She is my pride and joy, and I can't wait to see the look on her face when I give her the doll. It has blonde hair and blue eyes just like she does so I can already see her excitement.

I also went through some of my old essays. I kept the ones I was proud of, and the ones I wasn't pleased with went into the recycle bin to be put out on Tuesday. My old digital publishing portfolio also went into the recycle. Just because I have a portfolio from 2003 doesn't mean I still hold any of those publishing skills.

Next on my list is my big box of pictures. A lot of those people I could care less if I ever saw again face to face, let alone looking at their faces in pictures from high school. The important pictures are being kept. Everything else has got to go.

It's just stuff.

It's stuff I don't need that is holding me back.

I may have a heavy heart while I am sorting, though I will feel much lighter once it is gone.

And my music for the night. While I love the original, Lenny Kravitz did a kick ass job on this. It's definitely one of those songs I can cruise to after a long day at work.



I hope whoever is reading this has a great weekend. Take care of yourself, and keep your  pimp hand strong!

Song For The Night

God, these guys are so camp, but their music is catchy!

Here You Go, Ryo!

I get to spend my day with not only one RYO, but two! XD

Side of one of our RYO machines.

I go to work in about 30 minutes. Short shift today, and it's the end of the month, so I predict a pretty easy day. Maybe Bossman will make an appearance today. Work is always more fun with Bossman around!

What was the worst concert you went to?

Everclear. I saw them at a festival a few years back and I thought they were TERRIBLE. Every song they did sounded the same. It was like 45 minutes of hearing 'Father of Mine' on repeat. Don't get me wrong, I love their studio work, but I would never see them live again.

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Do you collect anything? If so, what is it?

Books. I collect books. I have a bookshelf overflowing with books of all sorts, from political works and language books to fantasy and science fiction. As an only child with busy parents, my books were my escape. Getting rid of them would be like losing an old friend.

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Feeling Nostalgic

With half of the music I like, I wonder if I was born too late. Two of my favorites for tonight.

Final Fantasy FTW

Today was the last day I have off until... I'm not sure. I have to look at the schedule, but knowing my manager I've got another six days straight and then three days off.

I've been playing more and more blitzball. Right now I'm number one in league play, and I won my first tournament game, so we will see how that goes. I have never been able to get Wakka's celestial weapon because I never played blitz enough. Let them tell me I don't play enough now!

I've kinda half assed some of the areas in the past day, mainly because I was playing so much blitz. Just got the airship so now I can start to really get the things I want to get.

Even though I have beaten the game countless times, I still have things that I never complete. I want this game to be complete.

One Down

I had my crown put on this morning. It feels stranger than the temporary. Either way, I celebrated eating without pain with a steak and cheese sub from Subway for breakfast and a cheeseburger for dinner.

Yeah, it sounds like a lot. After going for so long with near constant pain, I am glad to be able to eat again!

No work for the next two days. Looks like I've got a FFX binge in my future!

Classes need to start again! I'm going so stir crazy!

Patience, My Friend

On day two of rolling my own cigarettes. I saved about $10, which is great, though I don't have the convenience of an already rolled carton of cigarettes when I want one. Each afternoon I have been coming home and rolling about a pack and a half that I will keep on hand for me and Dad during the day. So far it isn't bad, but it is a bit tiring. It's something I can do while watching the news each night.

I had to switch to rolling my own, anyway. The RYO machines we have at work only run cartons of tubes with white paper. Bossman finally got in my favorite tubes again, which are black. Vera Cruz Midnight tubes are fantastic, and eye catching!

Maybe I will smoke less now that I am doing this, which will save me even more in the end.

I would love to be able to quit smoking. I wish I hadn't even started.

Harry Potter, New Music, and Stuff

First things first: OMFG*dies* Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part II was AMAZING! It was everything I had hoped for and more. It made me fall even more in love with Snape's character (and Alan Rickman's portrayal of him), and give me more respect for Molly Weasley (who kicked total ass, by the way). Unlike when I read the last book, I didn't cry like a child. Didn't stop me from wanting to, but I am not one for excessive shows of emotion in a public place. I can tell you when the DVD comes out and I watch it at home for the first time both part one and part two together I will probably cry like a little bitch.

I also enjoyed that they brought some of the humor back out. Part I had some humor, but this really took it. It lightened up some of the heaviness of the final battle. And the special effects! As always they were top notch. I was a little so so on how they handled the de-aging makeup on Snape and the aging makeup on the other main characters for the '19 years later' segment. Utter rubbish in the book, utter rubbish in the movie, but that is besides the point. In Snape's memories they had to de-age him, of course, so it wasn't an older looking Snape talking to Dumbledore seventeen years in the past. They did a decent job, don't get me wrong. It just looked a little odd. And then the scene with him and Lily after Voldemort left the Potter home... worthy of crying like a child. The utter despair on his face just... yeah.

Fantastic movie, and I'm sad to see the franchise end. At least there are still the movies to watch, the books to read over and over again until they fall apart, and JKR's new Pottermore site. I so cannot wait to read the back story of Professor McGonagall! She is one of my favorite characters in the book and I have always wanted to know more about her. Maybe we will even get to see more adventures of the Marauders!


I also have some new music to listen to! I watched Sucker Punch a few weeks back and fell in love with the soundtrack. If you haven't seen that movie, do it. If not for the action, if not for the hot girls totally kicking ass, do it for the music. I've always had a thing for more industrial and electronica music. This is chock full of an industrial sound as well as classic tunes revamped with the sound. I absolutely adore it. My bestie and I jammed out to it in the car the other day, and I've been listening to it when I have been cleaning. There is something about it that just makes me feel good.

For me and bestie, this is our jam XD



I have also been doing a lot of cleaning. Bestie cleaned out her storage unit the other day and cleared out nearly everything that she had when she moved back down here, all of the things that were in her apartment before she came. Of course, in amazement, I asked how she was able to so easily get rid of those things, remnants of the life that she had built up in NoFl for six years. In reply she just shrugged her shoulders and said "It's just stuff", as she threw another box in the trunk of the car. Hearing that really struck me. It's just stuff. All of these things I have been buying, all of this useless crap that isn't making my life any better, is just stuff. There is no need to fill any sort of internal void by buying all of this crap. Should something happen to me, I can't take it with me. It will all end up in the Goodwill store and be sold for charity. Should a hurricane come I won't be able to throw all of this stuff into the car and run. The important things are hard to find in all of the other junk. It's just stuff. Useless stuff.

With that mantra going through my head, I started cleaning yesterday. It's amazing how much one can get rid of when all that goes through your mind its "it's just stuff". My desk is a lot cleaner now because I was able to sort through and discern the difference between useful (my school supplies, for instance) and 'just stuff' (an old Honda emblem and business cards from four years ago). My desk is now much neater and only contains things that are either of vital importance (the school stuff and books), things that I like (my DS games), and items that bring back memories (my glow in the dark Harry Potter glasses from the book 7 midnight release that I attended with my other bestie). I have been taking that same idea and sorting through my clothes. The things I wore in high school don't need to be there. I am going to be 30 years old in a few years. I don't need to be dressing like a teenager. All of those clothes that look like something a teenager could wear will be going straight to some of the teenagers in my life that will look more appropriate in them than I will. All but the schoolgirl skirt. That thing still looks hot on me!

After the dresser and the closet are cleaned I will be attacking the bookshelf. Books that haven't been read in years will be sold online. All that will remain are books that mean a great deal to me (the Harry Potter series, Vampire Chronicles, a few favorite novels) or can be used (old school books and Visual Basic guides). Everything else will either be sold or donated.

Only things of great personal importance will not go through the 'it's just stuff' thing.

I do not need all of this stuff. The most important thing in my life is my family, and as long as I have my family and those that I love surrounding me everything will be fine.

Picture Post!

A friend and I made a trip to main campus the other day, so I have more pictures from the road!

It rained something fierce so I had her get some shots since I was driving. 

Just as we were coming up to the storm.

A bit closer.

In the middle of things.

Driving.

After that, the rain wasn't as terrible. We made it to the campus and took care of what we needed to do in less than half an hour, and then we were back on the road home. 

Even though I was scheduled for four days off, I have to go into work for a few hours today for mah bestie. I am not feeling well so I had looked forward to sleeping most of the day. It is a few extra hours on my check so I can't complain much, and I've worked sicker. I never call out if I'm sick, so I can't dib out on coming in for someone just because I'm sick. I don't particularly want to do it, and if it was anyone but my bestie I probably wouldn't. 

Saving Money

I haven't ranted much on the subject since I like to stay positive, but my hours at work have been seriously cut. I spoke to the owner of the store and he said he would look into it. That made me feel better, though I really need to figure out ways to save money and stretch every dollar as far as it will go.

The first step was changing phone plans. I cannot believe that I not only got a new phone but got a month of service for less than I normally pay for one month of service with AT&T. I paid $115 for a Sanyo Mirro and a $50 monthly plan through Boost Mobile. With my iPhone and AT&T I was paying between $120 and $130 a month. This will offer me a savings of around $75 a month give or take, and then each few months my bill will drop from $50 down to around $30 a month for unlimited everything. This will enable me to save up for a new phone later down the road! Fantastic!

I also used to think that mother was insane by clipping every coupon she found in the Sunday paper. Now that I'm having to stretch my money I've been doing the same thing. I haven't been shopping yet since buying my new phone used over half of my money for this two weeks, but it will all even out in time.

The next step is taking my old video games down to the game store and either selling them back or trading them in for something new. It won't be much, but it gives me the opportunity to either get new games or get enough money to take some of my loved ones out for a nice dinner one night for a family night (something we don't do often).

I am tired of being broke. It really sucks.

New Phone and School Shopping

Today I finally went and changed my phone company. I got tired of spending half of my biweekly pay on my phone so I switched to a different carrier and got a new phone. My number is still the same, I just switched phones. No more iPhone! It's a basic Sanyo that has what I need and nothing more.

I also did a bit of school shopping today. Nothing major, just some post-it flags for my textbooks and a new cover for my calculator. A lot of people at the college have the same pink calculator. I picked up a black and white Day of the Dead skull print cover so I'll be able to tell which one is mine.

Classes start at the end of August and I can't wait! Until then I suppose I'll enjoy my summer break ^.^

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All Went Well

Today’s appointment went really well. I was in the chair at 8:30 this morning and didn’t leave the dentist until about 11:30. Instead of just a root canal I was prepped for a crown and given a temporary tooth as a place holder until the crown is ready for me. I go in on the 26th to get that done.

I’m just depressed I spent most of the day by myself. I had people to spend the day with, but it seems like they all had better things to do.

Now I’m waiting on my bestie to come back with her baby. I’m so glad to be spending more time with her and her baby. It makes me want a baby of my own, haha. I would like to finish school and be married so I know I am able to care for all of the baby’s need. One day.

Photos From the Lake

Tonight I went up to the lake with a friend of mine to see what fireworks we could. Around sunset we decided to load her little one into the car and head up. Of course the baby was terrified of the noise from the fireworks so we didn't stay long. Here are the shots I did manage to get before it got too dark. 

 

 

 

 

What's left of the lake.

Another shot of where water used to be.

The only fireworks I could get on film.

Sunset over the dike.

Overall it was a nice evening. After we got home we made kebabs with shrimp, meatballs, red and green bell peppers, mushrooms, and tomatoes. Go figure we totally forgot the sausage and didn't realize it until after the food was already done. 

Now we are sitting at the table again, my friend is doing her homework while I sit here nervous. My root canal is in the morning and I am scared to death, yet excited all at the same time. I know the doctor isn't going to hurt me. I know that if the tooth is infected again (which it may be since it started hurting again) they will not do the root canal, but instead put me back on antibiotics and pain killers. I also know that the pain will be gone completely after he is finished. 

What scares me is I also have my consultation tomorrow. The doctor is going to go over my x-rays with me and develop a treatment plan. I have a few teeth that must be extracted. I have had two teeth extracted before, so I shouldn't be so afraid. The last time I was given drugs to go to sleep so I didn't know what was going on until after the teeth were already extracted. This time I will be awake since my dentist here doesn't offer intravenous sedation. For those of you who haven't had IV sedation - it sucks but is awesome at the same time. I got some of the best sleep of my life that day in the dentist chair, but I also had the worst afternoon. I was confused and got pissed very easily. I felt like a child again by the way everyone was treating me. 

The office here only offers nitrous (also known as laughing gas). I love nitrous. I love it. When I have that I am not longer afraid. Then again, I also don't give a damn about anything else that is going on, either. I am calm and happy. I am not as confused and easily angered when it wears off. I still like to be coddled, which always happens when I'm sick. I like to be cuddled or I like to sit in the living room with my dad and watch History Channel. It's just the sensation of knowing that someone cares about me. Sometimes I don't feel that I am cared for, even though I know that people do care for me. Sometimes it is just nice to hear the words, for someone to tell you "I am glad I know you" or "You are special to me".

Now I'm just babbling because I am afraid. I am afraid and I just want reassurance.

I suppose I should go to bed soon. I figure if I stay up late I'll be super tired tomorrow morning and the nitrous will have a better effect on me, possibly even make me go to sleep. 

I may not post tomorrow night, I'm not sure. It all depends on how I feel. I am going to be in the doctor's office from about 8:30 tomorrow morning to probably about noon or even one, and then I have to go to the college to sign up for fall classes. Yay for financial accounting, calculus, micro and macro economics! I'm going to make fall another 4.0 semester ^.^

For those of you in the USA, I hope you had a happy and safe Independence Day! Goodnight, all!

Independence Day Means Gatherings!

The past two days have been fantastic.

Last night I had a great dinner with some of the people I love most in the world. I haven't eaten that much in a long time! I ended up spending most of the evening with my best friend's little girl. It makes me want a baby of my own! She is the sweetest little girl, so smart for two years old.

Today we have a house full of my friends from high school. It's fantastic. My best friend is here doing her math homework and her baby is hanging out with my dad, and my brother from another mother is sitting here with us at the table playing video games on his PSP. This is what we do while we hang. Now we are waiting on food to finish cooking so we can eat, and then go somewhere to watch fireworks once the sun goes down.

Tomorrow is root canal and then going to the college to sign up for classes. I'm just glad to spend these three days I've had off with some of my closest friends.

Music For The Night

These guys are slowly becoming one of my new favorite bands. Killer jam for one living in a little redneck town! It makes me want to throw on a pair of cut off jean shorts and grab a cheap beer XD



And since I'm a total dork for the Gazette, one of their recent songs that I fell in love with. I absolutely love the sound of this. Some have complained that it sounds too Western or too American or too much blah blah blah - does it really matter when a song makes you want to rock along with it?

Kitty!